People say that word all time, like it's something easy, like it's something you fall into and all you have to do is climb out of it.

Mood swing.

That's another term people use. I heard a lot of these words from the doctors that mom sent me to. Mood swing. Like a set of playground swings. I can hear the kids swinging back and forth on the creaky rusty unoiled chains. All you have to do is kick really hard to get clear of the swing.

Get clear of it. I don't think I'll ever get clear of it. I think I've got a depression like the Grand Canyon is a hole in the ground.

No girlfriend--probably never gonna happen. Mom'd be better off without me. I know.

Doomed.

I am doomed.

Funny how much that sounds like damned.